:)

Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that

Never was and never will be
Have you no shame? Don’t you see me?
You know you’ve got everybody fooled

Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you’re pretending
But now I know she

Never was and never will be
You don’t know how you’ve betrayed me
And somehow you’ve got everybody fooled

Without the mask, where will you hide?
Can’t find yourself lost in your lie

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don’t love you anymore

It Never was and never will be
You don’t know how you’ve betrayed me
And somehow you’ve got everybody fooled

It never was and never will be
You’re not real and you can’t save me
Somehow now you’re everybody’s fool..

 

 

Pur si simplu ador piesa..si vocea ei! :X

 

*lavi*

Breaking Up

When you are in high school, six months can feel like forever. Just remember back to a week before graduation and how slow those last few days moved. I know it is hard to imagine, but I dated someone for two and a half years. Although there have been many life defining moments, breaking up with Jay was by far the biggest challenge I had ever had to face. My ability to move past him impacted my life in ways you cannot imagine.

Jay and I met in the summer of 2007. I knew him from school, but in that summer we started talking a lot. At that moment I felt what it was to have butterflies in my stomach and the racing heart when his eyes caught my own. I waited a long time for Jay to express his true feelings. Due to each of our encounters, I fell harder and harder for him and he did the same. For the first year, I felt nothing could go wrong, yet I was oblivious.

Jay and I embarked on a two year relationship based on fighting and lack of trust. It became more of a chore, rather than a choice, to be togheter. There was too many nights of tears, rather than smiles. It is incredible how someone can be everything you want but can’t be at the same time.

After way too long I realized that I no longer longed to be with Jay. I became dependent on Jay to make me happy. I needed him to be there all the time.

When Jay and I realized what it was we had become, I made the decision to leave behind that part of my life. It was that single conversation that changed my life dramatically. I realized after my decision how far I really had drifted. I now know that true happiness comes from within a person, not based on another individual.

But..I’m still in love with his beautiful smile..

*lavi*

:|

Nu ma simt bine. Nu stiu ce e cu mine. Inima imi spune ceva, dar creierul ma atentioneaza ca nu e bine. Habar nu am ce sa mai fac si in cine sa mai cred. Am nevoie de cineva tot timpul alaturi de mine. Din orice motiv, fie el cat de banal, ma cert cu cineva. Intr-o zi ma inteleg bine cu EL, in alta imi vine sa ii dau in cap. Gelozia uneori ma omoara. Si e al naibii de neplacut. Nu ma stiu ce simt pentru cineva. In fiecare zi trec de la o extrema la alta. Emotiile si sentimentele mi se schimba constant. Acum am fluturasi in stomac, peste 5 minute imi vine sa vars de nervi si suparare. Aceste trairi sunt alimentate de stresul si de problemele de la scoala, de certurile eterne de acasa nici sa nu mai pomenesc. :)

Nu pot explica si descrie exact starea in care ma aflu. Probabil unii ma inteleg, probabil nu. Dar ma multumesc sa stiu ca pot conta oricand pe prietenii mei adevarati care ma cunosc si ma suporta tot timpul. :)) >:D<

Tocmai din cauza starii in care ma aflu nu am mai postat mai nimic. Decat sa scriu doua cuvinte si sa le postez, mai bine ma abtin.

V-am pupat, trebuie sa mai repet la psihologie. Luni ultima teza si am scapat. In sfarsit! :*

P.S. Ca sa intelegeti cum ma simt. :)

 

*lavi*

Vacation

No serus! Uite pentru mine, azi e prima zi de vacanta. Cam scurta ce-i drept. Dar mai bine asa decat deloc. Adevarul e ca sunt foarte entuziasmata din cauza sarbatorilor de iarna. Mai ales pentru ca eu consider Craciunul ca fiind cea mai importanta sarbatoare crestina.

Eu de obicei intru in spiritul sarbatorilor cam pe la mislocul lunii noiembrie, imediat dupa ziua mea si inceputul postului. Zilnic la mine in camera se aud colinde. :D

Mirosul cozonacilor, a portocalelor, scortisoarei si a cuisoarelor sunt specifice la mine in casa. Pur si simplu sunt innebunita.

Apropo, scrisoarea catre Mos Craciun am scris-o deja. :)) Sper ca Mosu` sa se chinuie si sa mi-l aduca. :-w Si nu neaparat sub brad. :)) Ma rog, ma abtin ca altfel o sa devin foarte perversa, si no. :D

Am totusi o intrebare pentru cei care imi urmaresc blogul. :D Cum va petreceti sarbatorile, Craciunul si Anul nou? Sunt chiar curioasa. :D

No si in final, promit ca anul asta o sa mai postez cate ceva. :)) Revin cat mai repede cu o poveste foarte interesanta despre Revelion. :D

V-am pupat! :*

 

*lavi*

Sunt si eu pe aici

Hello, people!
Aici Alexa…nu am scris de foooooarte mult timp si sincer chiar mi-ati lipsit! Am fost foarte ocupata cu scoala…tezele stiti si voi! Noutati in viata mea nu prea au aparut. Saauu poate au aparut dar prefer sa le tin pentru mine. De ce? Pentru ca nu mi se pare ca trebuie sa spun aceste lucruri tinand cont ca nu prea m-au bucurat!

Oricum sper sa imi fac timp si de postat aici..Cam atat!

Bye- bye!
Alexa